Memories

 “For each thorn, there's a rosebud... for each twilight — a dawn... for each trial — the strength to carry on, For each storm cloud — a rainbow... for each shadow — the sun... for each parting — sweet memories when sorrow is done”. Said Ralph Waldo Emerson.

Memories are the most beautiful pictures our minds can paint, and nothing can ever erase them. Years,  Months, Days. Time goes by so fast .And we are only left with Memories

I vividly remember those days I spent with my friends. Carefree, jolly, but deep inside, I knew that these were people that would be there for me no matter what. But when, it was time to move on from all of that, I was those overwhelming memories that blocked out all the strength

It’s been ten months since I last met my friends and my best friend. Sometimes I wonder how long it will take for things to be like before, sometimes I wonder if I have enough strength to drive me through! But then the truth dawns on me that Life isn't always sunshine and butterflies. Sometimes you have got to learn to smile through the pain.  Fighting tears and holding onto memories that keep me going hasn't been a pleasant thing in life. Not at all! I’d be lying if I said, it hasn't been hard. Sometimes Lost, Confused, entangled with memories and too weak to move on.  Some old wounds never truly heal and bleed again at the slightest memory. Time heals everything is what people say to me! What a cliché! Time merely changes everything, as far as how much it heals, I’m not very convinced with what time has done. It has taught me for sure, loosened the mysteries, floated the ideas from the turmoil, given me strength to stand by, and continue till the last second. Time has changed me!

Don't you wish that memories had a play, pause and rewind button? It’s weird how the happiest of them can drive you to tears. The more we begin anchoring onto those memories, the more they hurt. It’s Just the feeling that you cannot relive those moments again. The feeling that things will never be the same again!  It’s not that life is depressing, but starting over in life makes me vulnerable because it can break you. I never knew what life would be like without the people I knew. Adapting to a new culture, a new society has been quite interesting. But the only thing that makes it unbearable is going back in time and reminiscing. It takes a lot of strength to hold on, but sometimes it takes much more strength to just let go and move on.

I fondly recall those days when arguments and debates ended in hugging and hi-5s. Tests meant last minute cramming. Life meant happy and friendship meant forever. Not even in my scariest nightmare did I imagine that I’d stand at a point in life when I had to let go off it all. I’m not saying I've had to take the hardest choices ever, but I sure have taken heart breaking and nerve wracking ones. But life boils down to a point where all that matters is strength to keep going on. Hope that things will get alright. Faith in the people you have. And an unfaltering belief that things will get alright. Moving one whole hemisphere isn't a cake walk. Might sound like that to some though? Sometimes, I feel like I’m living in two worlds, here, where I really am, and another place where I feel like I belong. It’s got nothing to do with the places. It’s those warmhearted memories that keep me hostage. I love reconnecting with the past, the smiles, the laughter shared and the happiness!

Finally, I've realized that life doesn't get any easier; it’s only that we get stronger. Memories aren’t always pleasant but they sure do last a life time Life wasn't supposed to be perfect. It’s the imperfections that make life real. Life teaches us something every day.IT makes us a little wiser, a little better and a little stronger. I know that things will get alright because if it’s not happy, it’s not the ending!